Throughout the centuries a few “scholars” have expressed doubts about the apostle Paul’s dramatic, life-changing conversion. Some labeled it an overheated/unbalanced imagination at work or a bizarre hallucination. Others think it was an epileptic seizure, the manifestation of a strong neurosis, or even a common case of sunstroke. The list of postulations is lengthy.
James S. Stewart wrote, “Too often the line has been taken of interpreting the event which revolutionized the man’s life as the product of natural causes or the climax of ascertainable psychological processes. Against such a view it’s necessary to record a very definite protest.”
According to Paul himself, his encounter with the risen Christ on the Damascus road was as real as rain. Certainly he replayed the unforgettable scenario in his mind repeatedly but he never once questioned its supernatural validity. I, too, have experienced moments when God intervened in my life and I’m positive it wasn’t my imagination on overdrive because every instance occurred before I surrendered my heart, mind and soul to Jesus. Nobody else was there. I was. And I know they were divine interventions. Therefore, I believe Paul’s story.
I’m reminded of Jesus’ response to Peter after the disciple confessed to Him, “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God.“ Our Lord said to him, “Flesh and blood did not reveal this to you, but My Father in heaven“ (Matthew 16:16-17). The same applies to Paul. W.R. Matthews commented, “In the end the problem of the supernatural resolves itself into the question of the existence of the living God.”
Stewart wrote, “No horizontal line of cause and effect could explain it. It had come vertically from above. The living God, unsearchable in His sovereign freedom, inscrutable in His absolute wisdom, had there and then interposed. Paul’s own soul owed everything to an experience of which he could say with utter certainty that it was no mere resultant of human and natural forces, but a direct, original act of supernatural grace.” Johannes Weiss concluded that Paul’s conversion was “no subjective ‘vision’ in the modern psychological sense, but a real beholding of the glorified Christ.”
Paul based his entire apostolic credentials on what occurred that infamous day. Jesus had appeared before him in person. And the proof was in the pudding, so to speak. He wrote to the church, “Am I not free? Am I not an apostle? Have I not seen Jesus our Lord? Are you not my work in the Lord? If I’m not an apostle to others, at least I am to you, for you’re the confirming sign of my apostleship in the Lord. That’s my defense to those who examine me“ (1 Corinthians 9:1-3).
In his Confessions Augustine wrote of his own profound “come to Jesus” moment, declaring: “With Thy calling and shouting Thou didst break my deafness; with Thy flashing and shining Thou didst scatter my blindness. At the scent of Thee I drew in breath, and I pant for Thee. I have tasted, and I hunger and thirst. Thou hast touched me, and I am on fire for Thy peace.”
Most Christians accept Paul’s testimony as the absolute truth. Yet there are some who opine it was so surreal and extraordinary that it adversely tainted his ministry; that afterwards he preached a misleading “conversion theology.” They wonder if such a mind-boggling event was a suitable guide for Paul to discover the truth, if it’s possibly an obstacle for those whose conversion wasn’t nearly as arresting, if it makes a lot of his teaching hard to grasp or perhaps, in some cases, indecipherable.
Respected as he was, Weiss was among the skeptics. He wrote that many believers who were raised in the church “aren’t conscious of having ever experienced justification or the forgiveness of sins as a special act, seeing that from the earliest days they’ve lived in the atmosphere of God’s grace; and to be reborn as a ‘new creature’ seems to them organically impossible because they’re well aware that the question for them can only be one of slow and gradual progress, not without moments of stumbling and retreat.”
I can relate – to an extent. My parents dragged me to our church every time its doors were open. I heard hundreds of sermons based on sound doctrine. I “went down front” and got baptized when I was 9 because I felt it was what was expected of me. There was no epiphany, no heavenly spotlight, nothing out of the ordinary. And there were times when I wondered if it was genuine, since my conversion was far less spectacular than Paul’s. I suspect many have felt the same.
Yet no one was more aware of this dilemma than Paul. He called his teachings, “my Gospel“ (Romans 2:16). Stewart commented, “Frankly, he declared his inability to preach anything except what had been given him, and what had passed through the flames of his own soul. And, indeed, no Gospel that lacks an intensely individual touch can be worth very much. Hence it’s simply not true to say that, for those whose road has been different, Paul’s message is ‘unintelligible.'”
I’ve learned there’s no “cookie-cutter conversion.” Christ transforms His own “in the fullness of time“ (Galatians 4:4) and in a way that best suits our personality and/or circumstances. He knows us better than we know ourselves because He literally “knit us together“ in our mother’s womb (Psalm 139:14). The important thing is we’ve been saved from the wrath of God and blessed with eternal life via His suffering in our place upon the cross.
A mature Christian has no difficulties believing Paul’s conversion testimony. Stewart wrote, “They don’t feel the apostle’s talking in an unknown tongue. If they’re sensitive at all, they feel a kinship. They find themselves at home with this great ardent soul who knew life’s heights and depths so well. They believe they can understand him. For Damascus, so far from setting Paul apart from us and keeping us away, has made him brother of us all.”









